Pervasive.

What is it about you and me and the collective 'us'? Where are we now and where are we going to go? What are we going to do, what are we going to do?

Mine's not just a life. It's a book with chapters dated and archived and always readily available to refer from. I've looked at relationships as incidents to learn from, a stepping stone to the next one in my life and always, always as something Fate intended to happen because there was a purpose behind them. There was something i needed to understand about myself or about love from them. It's a formula that's never failed. But you and me, i'm thrown off-track by that.

What am i supposed to learn out of this? Why did it happen? Why is it happening? What is it that i'm missing or not seeing? What is Fate trying to do?

We're just status quo, stuck in no man's land. We don't know what lies ahead. So then what's the purpose behind it? Yes, there's affection - enough of it to call it love. Yes, there's explosive chemistry. But what beyond that?

We went our separate ways, and when we met again, it was as if we were never away at all. So is it a sign that this is meant to be? If that's true, why is it taking so long?

Or am i just supposed to suffer? Wait and wish and dream and hope?

Augh.