Discovery.

This pain won't go away, no siree. It's just below the surface, always looking for a microscopic hole that it can possibly wedge its malignant tentacle through and break out full-force. No matter if i've had a night out, many downs at Hard Rock Cafe or Take 5, lunches and movies and an early-morning drive and a makeover, this won't change. He has though. A lot about him has. He's happier. More carefree. And i grudge him this. I grudge him his happiness because i'm not part of it. I never was.