Monday night blues.

Work got done by 5 last evening, and i was just not in the mood to get right back into reality. So i went out. And i got drunk - starting with a Breezer, moving on to 8 whiskeys and finally ending with a Breezer at three in the morning on the roadside in a car.

It reminded me of the good times with The Boy. Of driving around because neither of us wanted to go back home or be away from each other, circling close to the house, talking, listening to music. Only difference, this time it was with Geek Boy and it had nothing to do with love and attraction and any of those things commonly associated with two people out together.

We wound up at the watering hole around 12-ish, drove around for a bit, parked somewhere on the side of Outer Ring Road and talked. And talked and talked and talked. Mostly about life and love. About being better people for the people we love. Of making the right choices, taking chances, risking a heartbreak in the hope that things won't really come to that. Then we drove around a little more and picked up a pint and a Breezer, and drove towards home. And then we parked on the roadside again. And played random old songs. Some on loop. Some halfway. Iris by Goo Goo Dolls. And we finished our respective bottles. I told him about how i was a bundle of topsy-turvy, helter-skelter emotions and that i didn't wish for anybody to go through the shit i'm going through, and he held my hand and kissed it and said that i shouldn't worry about him or be afraid for him.

And then, because i was rapidly losing control over my bladder, we went to an all-night coffee shop in a five-star hotel to use their restroom. Then we drove towards my place and played Gotye. And we screamed our lungs out at 3:30 in the morning, shouting the lyrics, putting every ounce of our emotion into it, every bit of angst, every bit of anger and frustration and love and pain and heartache. And we sang. We screamed and we sang.

The singing aloud? It was cathartic. Healing.

It was exactly what i needed last night.