Overwhelmed.

Does your head ever feel heavy and do you feel the inexplicable need to cry? Just cry for no reason at all? Bawl, regardless of whether the tears flow or not, because there's something that's bothering you and you don't know what that something is?

Do you find it hard to forgive yourself? For the slightest error of judgement or the biggest goof-up of all mankind? Do you mentally beat yourself up black and blue for not having been smarter about things, not having thought with a calm mind?

Do you feel like you're having an out-of-body experience? Like, when you do something foolish or insensitive or crass or obnoxious that you never think you're capable of doing? Do you feel like you own the world, that you're good enough when really, deep down, somehow you get the feeling that the only reason you get away with a lot of things is because people are just being kind to you? And then do you think that, hey, perhaps you're not good enough? And that you're not the best there is? For anything, in anything?

And does that make you wonder, what am I doing? What am I turning into? Who is this person in the mirror?

So many questions without answers.