Three years ago.

I was browsing through the new Facebook settings, and stumbled across my notes. One of them was titled 'Randomness', from an FB era that was famous for tagging people on notes and getting them to tag others. It was about 25 random things about me. I read it. And i was surprised at how i sounded three years ago, because nothing much has changed since. I'm still a lot of those things, with the exception of one or two, the updates for which i will mark in red.

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1. It depresses me when i'm unable to crack bad ones. 

2. I've always wanted shoulder blade-length hair because i think it's very sexy. 

3. I think a lot about everything, whether it makes sense or not. 

4. I've always wanted to get into my ex-boyfriend's heads and see the relationships through their perspective. 

5. A penthouse with french windows and a sloping glass ceiling in the bedroom, a sitout with wild flowering plants and a lemon tree, and a wrought-iron bench to watch the world from. That's what i live for. 

6. When i was young, I wanted to die of a brain tumor. 

7. I never turn back after saying goodbye to something or somebody. These days, i do. And i hate myself for it.

8. I hate confrontations/fights. I still do, but i like getting them over with quickly and moving on.

9. When i'm uncontrollably angry, i start shivering and sputter while trying to speak. When i'm depressed, i turn to nature and books for companionship. And Coke Studio Pakistan.

10. I associate smells with people. 

11. I schooled myself through my years of growing up that i would be emotionally self-sustaining. 

12. I love Mathematics, but i suck at it. 

13. I can cook, keep house and sew as well as i can dance, drink, swear like a sailor and not give a damn about having breasts. 

14. I'm thrilled to bits with small gestures of affection from people. 

15. The more i dislike something, the more likely it is that later in life i will love it. 

16. Bad marriages scare me. 

17. Getting me to drive is not the problem, getting me into the driver's seat is. 

18. I want to see Switzerland and Egypt before i die. 

19. I love chewing on crushed ice. 

20. My life lacks discipline, and that bothers me. 

21. When i'm with people, i become what they are not. 

22. I wish i could give my parents back their youth only so i can get them to do all the stuff they missed out on when they were young. 

23. Waterbodies are super-fascinating. 

24. Everytime i'm on a high balcony, i'm tempted to jump off because i want to know what the feeling is like. 

25. I want to float on a cloud.